Wonderful Holiday...

Salam,

First of all just wanna say that right now I manage to control my emotions..I gain strength from my family and friends..TQ "uolls"(NURUS thought me the word)hehe..

Ok..ok..now I'm going to start my story...(start to feel like an author..daaa):P

At first I thought that I'm going to had a lame and boring holiday coz I will be alone and can't hangout with my friends.But my thoughts was wrong..Actually,I am having a wonderful holiday eventhough my holiday just started last Tuesday..

Exactly after finished my last exam paper, I went to Jaya Jusco a.k.a JJ to meet my friends and hangout and watch movies [shrek ok..it so damn nice and the characters are cute too:)]there supposed to be 6 gurls..but then aida had to cancel the meeting coz her car broke..curse that car (bcoz of u aida can't join us)..it ok aida..we will hangout again later k after nurus came back from her debate..miss her..i miss u guys..lets have sleepover at my house..we do slumber party..haha..hope that can be a reality before al of us start our studies back..

ok..ok..back to the story..I hangout with my gurlfrens and I had a wonderful time..we chit chatting for hour..then we watched movies and laughed together..I never be so happy like this..my TCS's frens are the BEST..love u guys..hope we can hangout again together ok..but next time with the other members of our huge group yeah..I LOVE MY FRIENDS and I am totally gonna miss u guys..This is a wonderful week for me as I manage to hangout with people I like and I enjoyed my day..I wish to all my friends that u guys will have a wonderful days ahead ok..may God bless all of us..I will never forget the happy memories u guys gave me..

Bcoz of my laziness(i don't know how to spell ok..),I thnk i gonna stop here..just want to express my LOVE to u guys..Now i want to go out and have fun with fara..hehe..hope we will have a lot of fun..

P/S: To NURUS AND AIDA..I never forget u guys..uolls are my best friends ever (BFF yeah)..after nurus head back to Ipoh,the three of us hangout together yeah..we do all the things that we can't do together while u guys were not with me yeah..miss u gurls..MMuUUAAHH..

Sekian,wassalam..
xoxo,
nana :D

I AM SO SORRY...:(

Salam,

In life..we all have to make decision right??same goes to me..TODAY I have make a huge decision that I am sure many people will hate it..but anyhow I have to do it..I can't postponed it anymore..I always feel down and feel bad when i have to do the right decision in my life..i seek for people's advices and opinions but at last I still have to make my own decision..I become a COWARD when its almost the time for me to finally really tell the final result of my decision..(ok..time to cry..)..The stress in my head make me crazy and I always make other people involve in my problems..WHY must i make other people involve in my problems???WHY they should feel the stress that i felt??WHY must I make other people suffer with my problems??I always ask myself these question..but I don't have the answer..I really need support from friends and family..I really need opinions and useful advices for my problems..I feel BAD when i hurt someone's heart..they are innocent..but WHY??WHY I have to be so cruel and hurt their feelings??I FEEL SO DAMN BAD!!!I AM A BAD GIRL!!!(seriously)..what I need is someone to UNDERSTAND me..I don't like people to force and what so ever..I like the way I am right now..I don't want to change my self because they want me to..but I don't know whether they understand or not..then at the end..I have to..HAVE TO hurt their feeling for my own sake..or otherwise I am the one who will hurt at the end..I don't want to be hurt anymore cause IT'S HURT...I need time to be alone..and I ONLY need my friends and family..aarrgghh...I AM CONFUSED..what the hell had happen to me??am i crazy??or what??OWH GOD..PLEASE MAKE ME GO THROUGH ALL THE CHALLENGES IN MY LIFE EASILY AND FULL WITH "KEIMANAN" IN MY HEART..and to my dear and lovely friends and family who read this post,please pray for me..pray so that i can move on my life with happy and cheerful life..i am begging..
BTW..my lovely family,u guys help me a lot in making the right decision..and my friends that willing to hear my problems and give me advices,thank you very much..i love u guys a lot..I will try to help u guys if u guys need help ok..just say it and i'll try my best for u guys..
Finally..I want to say I AM SO SORRY to my dear kecik cause I have to leave facy..I really can't go with it..I hope u will enjoy all the camps..I luv u..I will support u from behind..
That's all for today..and i want to sleep cause my brain is so tired to think so many things..I'll write later..
sekian,wassalam..
xoxo,
nana

Today Is Mummy's Day..

Salam,

Today is MUMMY'S DAY..I love my mum so much..she is everythng to me..I wish her all the best in her life and i will never forget what she had done to raise us till now..(can i cry??hehe)..
My mummy's name is Puan Haslinda..she is a very strong person inside and out..she can do many thngs without complaining..i feel so bad coz when i do somethng,i will complain even a little..so i hope i can chnage my attitude and not complaining anymore..
I want to show evryone my mum..but no link to upload photos..(bengong pnya blog..)but i'll find a way to download my mum's photos ok..I am PROUD with my mother..
That's all for today..short post for my LOVELY mother..I LOVE U MUM..MMUUUAHHH..

Sekian,wassalam..
With lots of LOVE,
nana

My journey...

Salam,

It had been a long time since i last wrote my blog..I always wanted to write one but i didn't have the opportunity to do so..and today..i have the chance to do so and i want to write so many things about my chaotic life this few weeks..
I don't know where to start..but my day was sometime cool,bad,good and so on..so many feelings in my heart and my soul(cewahh)haha..i don't know why..lately I feel EMPTY..my heart feels light and nothng for me to thnk about..i am CONFUSED..everybody that I told my problems seems kinda easy to talk..but for me..its very hard to apply..I AM VERY CONFUSED with my heart..I AM clueless..
That is the major probs in my mind rite now..other thngs that i have to thnk about is about my tests and quizes..(ok..rite now i start to be emo alittle bit..)I don't know whether i can maintained my AKJ'S THIS SEM..it's kinda hard coz i feel that my PB will be so bad..all my quizes and tests are not good at all..(waa..so damn sad)..rite now I am on my way to transform..i start to stdy HARD & SMART (its what we all should do ok..not just stdy hard..no2..not good)
ok2..enough with that..now i still have to deal with people that i feel i don't have the aura with me..its hard to communicate with people like this ok..i have to thnk hard how to communicate with this kind of people..i keep wondering about this kind of people..don't they realise that their attitude sometimes make people feel unconfortable??weird..very weird..but becoz i am not a cruel person..i will always be fren with this people..i will take care of their heart and i'll try my best not to heart their feeling..please support me my dear frens and family..i really need ur support..i'm facing a lot of challenges in my life(its what we all should face ok)rite now..i dont want to be down all the time..i hope people would UNDERSTAND me..
sekian..wassalam..

xoxo,
nana